Grappling with the prospects of taking a sabbatical and/or calling it quits for real;
Never thought it'll be that tough a decision calling it quits;
The six figure salary, the limited perks, the seeming "prestige" and job satisfaction;
Are those real? They certainly seem like obstacles in the path to the promised land;
Oh well, what indeed is the promised land?
After more than 10 years in the journey to F.I.R.E;
I realise that from my perspective, the monetary aspect, is perhaps the most simple problem of it all;
Managing one's fear, emotions, and desires is proving to be a much tougher problem to solve;
But with all problems or transitions which are tough;
Fruit will be borne out of thee;
And with sufficient effort, these will eventually be, perhaps not resolved holistically, but managed effectively;
I feel tremendous gratitude indeed, for having these problems at such a tender age of less than 32;
But that shall not serve, in any way. as an excuse from shunting away from responsibility;
The responsibility to provide, to live a better life, and to live true to my own values;
My values, which do seem a bit muddled from the years spent waging battle in the investing banking trenches;
With enough water and patience, perhaps true north could obtained once more?
It's all in the journey RB35;
Keep strong, and keep the faith and live progresses;
And enjoy the ride while it lasts;
Because at the end of it all;
We'll all turn to ashes and dust.
